nowadays , everything is getting kindda awkward .

no longer those times whereby i smiled like there’s no tomorrow .

all bcause of the awkward-ness between me & you now .

i don’t know why everything turn out this way . actually , i’ve already expected this to happen right aft the holidays . andd , true enough , it’s happening right now . 

maybe , i shall just stop everything and pretend if i had never known you before . it’s easy to just say it BUT it’s difficult to make it happen , do you know that ? if only , i didn’t get to know you at all at the first place , i bet all this won’t happen . huuuhuuu . =’(

idk why , suddenly i start to miss 2009 . esp . the end of 2009 .

i miss hanging out with the 2NA[s] . i miss staying in the school canteen until 4 plus & also study together with them at the library when EOY was nearing . andd , also my life in 2009 seems so perfect (altho i know , nobody’s perfect in this world)

i also miss the first half of 2010 .

those days when i still get to keep in contact with them . andd , also …… that person ! i miss those time when we used to have a small convo together . aiish .

BUT now , it’s already the another half of 2010 .

everything changes . andd , truthfully , i HATE it !

i want everything to be like it used to be . not like this .

can i just turn back the time ?